The music video Not Gonna Cry was released on 13 December 2018.
Verse 1
I know it's not supposed to be easy
Pouring out the bottled up feelings
But I didn’t think it would be this hard
Walking to school with a broken heart
And the jacket around my waist feels stupid
I don't know why the hell we do this
Saying I'm sorry like I’m the one
Who's picking us apart for fun
Pre-Chorus 1
Why am I feeling like this?
Why am I feeling like shit?
Why am I all in pieces?
I don't even need this, oh-oh
Why am I on the bedroom floor?
Chorus
With paranoia and painkillers
Washing away all these feeling
But I know, I know, I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking
You're a cigarette and I'm quitting
But I know, I know, I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
I’m not gonna cry for you
Verse 2
You smell like cigarettes and perfume
No one fucks me up like you do
And maybe you thought I would play along
I rather be dancing on my own
Do you really think that I’m stupid?
Of course I heard all the rumors
But all of the grenades you threw
They just made me bulletproof
Pre-Chorus 2
I'm done with feeling like this
Done with feeling like shit
Done with being in pieces
I don’t even need this, oh-oh
I'm done with laying on the floor
Chorus
With paranoia and painkillers
Washing away all these feeling
But I know, I know, I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking
You’re a cigarette and I'm quitting
But I know, I know, I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you
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